My struggle, or How I lost weight

2024 Author: James Gerald | [email protected]. Last modified: 2023-12-17 14:00

I will say right away - I have never been very fat, passers-by did not point a finger at me and the children did not jump back in horror. But I always dreamed of being thin - to have a flat tummy, thin waist, slender legs. I wanted to please myself and others. Just as you want, and she, and all of us. But some love themselves, regardless of body size, while others are struggling with their shortcomings all their lives. I also fought …

Life Before Struggle

Until the age of 12, I lived in peace and did not even think about my dimensions. Yes, my parents were often told by acquaintances:"

Mmm, those were great times!..

Enlightenment

Boys interested me, it seems, from birth. But the thoughts about love in my child's head arose during my studies in the fifth grade. He was so funny, brave, kind. I drew it on a piece of notebook paper, timidly glancing sideways at the sweetest profile in the whole world at the next desk. During recess, he ran around the classroom with other boys, playing "bacillus": a rag flew from one wall to another, showering with chalk those who sat at their desks. I admired my hero. So he again grabbed the rag, now he looked at the boy standing behind my back, now - piercingly - at me (his heart sank!), And suddenly: "Fat, bend down!" Who is he for ?! To me?!

At home, standing in front of the large bathroom mirror, for the first time I took a critical look at myself from head to toe. And I decided that I was really fat. But what to do with this decision of mine - I did not know. And she continued to live the same way as before.

The appearance of an incentive

At the age of 14, with a height of 165 cm, I weighed 65 kg, which, according to the norms of old Soviet anatomy textbooks, is quite acceptable for an average Soviet woman. But completely different times have come, besides, I was not a woman, but just a teenager. So in me a dislike for myself slowly began to arise. Most of all I was "killed" by round cheeks. I dreamed so much that they would someday fall (then I did not know yet that the apple cheeks given by nature never fall).

Once we were sitting with my dad at the table, and I was making myself a third sandwich. Dad looked at me and said, "Maybe that's enough?" I immediately jumped up from the table: "Are you sorry ?! Then I won't eat at all ?!"

So I got an incentive. From self-hatred, fat and in spite of my parents at the age of 14, I began to lose weight.

Wrong, but effective

I do not advise anyone to repeat. But I really lost weight. In a few months by 15 kilograms. In the morning I ate a bun with butter and tea and didn't eat ANYTHING until the next morning. And so every day. Constant hunger. Terrible nervousness. A little bit - into tears. With parents - a continuous war. This was one of the most unpleasant times in my life. The transition to thinness happened so quickly that I did not even have time to reorganize mentally, and continuing to consider myself fat. Once I read an article in a magazine about a clinic where women with anorexia are treated. When they, exhausted, almost turned into skeletons, were asked to draw their silhouette, their shadow on the wall, they drew fat shapeless monsters, sincerely believing that they are. Then I was like them.

Harder to hold than to acquire

Having held out in my favorite weight class for about a year, I began to slowly but steadily recover. "Shaping with Cindy Crawford" did not help - he was even more hungry. Some miraculous capsules, bought at the pharmacy, did not even think to reduce appetite. My university friend Olga, who weighed 45 kg with a height of 170 cm, shared with me the "secret" of her slenderness bordering on dystrophy: on Sunday I can lie in bed in front of the TV until lunchtime, and then go to the kitchen and find that there is nothing to eat. I won't interrupt my appetite with some candy."

Marvelous! Under no circumstances, neither in sorrow nor in joy, did I forget to eat! And how can you! In the end, my weight crawled up to 60 kg, and I almost convinced myself that you can't trample on nature …

Placement of accents

I have never lost weight either from happy or from unhappy love. And here … Food has become something secondary, only supporting strength for the main events in life. There was a rearrangement of accents: what a fig food, if in 3 months we have a wedding! Now I no longer remember what and how much I ate in those days. Probably, it was then that my body got used to living not in order to eat, but in order to live.

Now, a year and a half after the wedding, I weigh 52 kg and I think this weight is optimal for my complexion. The correct placement of accents is still in effect - thoughts about food have faded into the background, family and work are in the foreground. I don’t go on diets, I don’t give up sweet, starchy foods, spicy foods. From the old habits, I have remained with me an unmistakable definition of the calorie content of any dish and a strong friendship-hatred with the bathroom scales.

Let me give a few tips for those who are currently fighting for harmony.

They do not pretend to be scientific, some of them may even seem harmful. But still…

1. Eat everything. But little by little. Chocolate is healthy, carbohydrates in flour products - too. Don't give a damn about meatless diets unless you are a vegetarian for religious or ethical reasons.

2. Discard the piece of bread that lies next to the bowl of soup, next to the plate of porridge, next to the meat. Why do you need this piece? It doesn't taste better, but it does add calories. Get used to eating without it!

3. When you come home from work or school, your first desire is to eat your fill, sometimes without even reheating your food, sometimes even straight out of the frying pan? If so, try to fool your stomach. Buy yourself something that is not small, but low in calories on the way home, such as a pack of crab sticks. While dinner is warming up, sticks will freeze your glutton-worm.

4. If you overeat at a friend's birthday party or somewhere else - do not suffer, do not drink tons of laxatives and do not put two fingers in your mouth. After all, you got a real pleasure from food, and then why spoil everything? Try not to eat anything the next day, but you must drink water, kefir, mineral water!

5. Don't starve yourself for days in a row. One friend of mine did not eat anything for 15 (!) Days. She dramatically lost weight, but after 2 months she regained everything that she had lost, plus another 3 kilograms. In addition, she has earned herself gastritis.

6. Not eating after six in the evening is a very effective way to lose weight! Trust me!

7. Count your calories. If you "eat" less than 1500 kilocalories a day, you will inevitably lose weight. With age, this "bar" decreases to 1000 kcal.

8. Drink vitamins, especially if you decide to lose weight in winter or spring. Why do you need dandruff, brittle nails, hair, teeth?..

9. Let the mouse hang in your fridge, not finding something to profit from. The ideal option is to buy exactly as much food on the way home as you intend to eat for dinner and for breakfast. Then there will be no temptation to take a stroll to the refrigerator for a sausage or cake at night.

10. When it becomes completely unbearable from this damn weight loss - arrange yourself a small holiday. Buy 100 grams of the tastiest chocolates by weight and eat them all with pleasure. Enjoy without remorse! Just don't eat later.

11. Hit someone from your family to lose weight together. You will control and morally support each other. Yes, and together it is more fun to lose weight!

The remaining 1000 and one piece of advice will be happy to give you nutritionists, girlfriends, mom, mom's friends. Fruits, vegetables, fish, rice, diet by blood, curative fasting, "losing weight is expensive, but effective" … Make your choice! And become who you want to be, but learn to love yourself for who you are.